Chronicles of my journey from closet to open CDing... A short intro: Been crossdressing since I was 5 and it has been a very lonely journey. As a young boy, going full drag in my mother's clothes was easy. I self-discovered musturbation and the joys my genitals can bring at 10 years of age.
I felt very guilty and ashamed of myself hence no one knew of my CDing. I would dress up in my mother's clothes whenever she was not around and wear her bras to bed.
Only in the recent years did my CDing activities became more active. It started with my purchase of my first lingerine during a trip to Thailand and that marks the start of many purchases of femenine goods. At that time my girlfriend of 7 years left me for another man and I was emotionally unstable.
Soon, my cupboards were filled with dresses and skirts and my drawers were filled with women's underwear, all bought in shops. Still, all activities were confined to my room.
I bought a pair of breastforms and they have pushed up my CDing by a notch. Soon I started to buy heels, wigs and makeup. Now, I've accepted myself as what I am and no longer feel guilty to CD. But it'll take much time, courage and support for me to open up especially in Singapore's conservative culture.
My progress so far has been pretty steady. I'm now comfortable enough to go out and take public transport myself. Though I still feel a great inertia just before stepping out of the house, I can manage better now. My make up techniques are constantly being refined and i feel more comfortable to just "be myself".
I hope to find fellow CDing sisters to share experiences with and to support each other. You are not alone!
~ "People ask me why I crossdress. To me, crossdressing is like an art and me, an artist. And as an artist, my goal is to create a piece of beauty. While a painter has his canvass and a sculptor has his stone, for me, I'm both a sculptor and painter; My body the stone and my face, the canvass."
Its day three of my new job in a office hour setting and I must say, I'm Loving It! No more burnt weekends, no more anti-social working hours! Maybe its just that I'm new and they do not wish to scare me off first. Anyway, time to enjoy the weekend!
Been a long time since I've posted. Busy between keeping my wife comapny and playing Diablo 3 that I hardly go online to surf nowadays. Still, I found some time to CD at home and I have my wife as a spectator! this is a photo of me in a maid costume i bought online. Nothing beats doing housework with your spouse in cosplay! i was addressing her as 'mistress' and she would giggle and play along. Life has been smooth sailing so far, her long hours at work give me alot of time for myself. my greatest worry now is getting a place of our own... Houses in SG are so damn expensive!
Just read through the new video contest on AdultFriendFinder, feeling tempted to participate... I guess I do have a hidden porn star in me! But I'm shy... Just ranting. ~ Tomi
It is a dream come true A prayer answered. Like a needed rest At a journey's end. It is a ray of light, in the still of the night. Like a fireplace, in winter's cold embrace.
To find a love, thats warm and true. A love that wants, All that is You. These were all I was searching for, To look any further, I would be a fool
The end of a maze, The end of a race, But wait! Hold on! A new journey ensues!
This day has been a dream for me for quite awhile, and I never thought that it will ever come true... but it did! I had supper with my gf just now in my best CD attire... Pretty? I could feel her initial unease over the phone before we met, but after she saw me, she warmed up to the occasion.
Hopefully there will be more of such days to come!
Went to my gf house recently to learn how to apply better eye makeup. The effect really much better. What u guys think? Hopefully I can duplicate it properly.... practice!
Just to update my friends out here, I am no longer with my previous company. I have moved on to another company. Though they are a smaller company, I am given a higher position and 2 off days with similar pay. More time to CD!
After so many years, I've decided to try creating a cleavage out of my flat chest... Read many tips on the net and even saw some tips using make up! This is the result of 1 hour's work... The hot weather doesn't help as I keep sweating and cause all kinds of problems.... : ) How is the effect?